the last

that will be

the

last

time

i shed tears on account of you.


the story has ended.


its time to continue on with life.

a life not shrouded with doubt and confusion

a life not clouded with insecurities and half-truths

a life not focused absolutely on dreams and idealistic wants

a simple life.

.just me. [with my hot chocolate and marshmallowz. =) ]

succumbing

succumbing to the pull
im reminded once again
the reason i made myself stay away


im still uable to come to an absolute decision
at times im so sure
but then at times i wonder if she's right

ive ceased the endless questioning
ive stopped the excessive demanding
because i know its of little use, little significance
but i cant stop my heart from hurting
because ultimately i know the end to this story

if only i was the author.

woefull...

either my heart has hardened

or my supply of tears has dried up.

even though i was aching to cry, somehow i just couldnt ...
tears welled up in my eyes but they werent even enough for a single drop down the cheek....

woe is me.

For the girls..

Tips to surviving a trip to Pudu Market(or any other mass frequented open market) in your sunday church-going, high heels wearing outfit:

1)Be prepared for obnoxious leers and stares. (its a public place so thats basically all they can do...)

2)Ignore all sorts of leers,jeers, catcalls, whistles and shouts of "leng lui!!"

3)Do not in whatever circumstance make eye-contact with any of the store keepers( esp young males!!)...

4)Always look at where/what you're stepping on, constantly looking at the ground will avoid you droppping into and big puddles of suspicious liquid. ( keeping you eyes towards the ground is a good way of dissuading unwanted stares and calls..)

5)Carry bags of groceries as it helps to blend in a lil...(im assuming that you're at the market to buy groceries of you're accompanying someone who is shopping...if not i dont know what you're doing there in you sunday church going outfit..)

6)Don't wear shades, short skirts or tight sleeveless tops.

7)Lastly, Don't ever go to the market again in nice church going clothes. If need be, wear a loose shirt and jeans or loose knee length shorts if its too hot.. and no makeup!! =)

As each page turns...

knowing how this story will turn out
knowing how this story will end
whatever happens in the middle
whatever happens as i turn each page
is of little significance
is of little worth
because the ending will still be unchanged

i know every situation and every circumstance has its consequences
but this is one story in which nothing can change the ending
there might be a few twists and unexpected turns
but indefinitely the ending will be the same.

this story is coming to a close.