what it all comes down to

is that i cant seem to let go

is that action speaks louder then words

is that for you out of sight is truly out of heart and mind

is that im lacking the strength each day to have to fight for your attention

is that one day soon i wont be here for you anymore

is that there is a limit to how much i can take

is that life is so very fragile and precious

is that you dont love me anymore.

waxing poetrical expressions

2 paths
2 decisions
both as hard
both as painful
both with significant heartache

wish i was anywhere but here
wish i was anyone but me
wish i was feeling anythin but this

i imagined the sunny skies
i imagined the clear blue clouds
i imagined the promising rainbow
i imagined.

a life not familiar
a life im not worthy of
a life i cant take part in anymore
a life; a life not mine.

????

can't live with you, can't live without you.

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germ if you read this... you're right about the dodgy heart... =)

cherished.

i won't forget
so don't forget

..... please remember

preoccupied/joy

the sun is shining
but all i see are the dark clouds on the horizon
the birds are chirping
but all i hear are the conversations in my head
holidays are a few joyous days away
but all i feel is apprehension

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i found out that one can be unhappy and still have joy in their hearts...
joy in being a child of God
joy in the knowledge that God will never leave you nor forsake you
God's Joy.

sighhh

i cant sleep!!!... again!!!...
my last good nights sleep was hmm last friday...
and i think i got gastric...sighhh...
tummy upset and insomnia...
this is not good...not good at all...