someday..

Someday when we are wiser,
When the world's older,
When we have learned.
I pray someday we may yet live to live and let live.

Someday life will be fairer,
Need will be rarer
Greed will not pay.
God speed this bright millennium on its way.
Let it come someday.

Someday our fight will be won then,
We'll stand in the sun then,
That bright afternoon.

Till then, on days when the sun is gone,
We'll hang on,
Wish upon the moon.

Change will come one day,
Someday soon.

pieces

to my dearest who told me bout this song....
thank you.
try not to be so hard on yourself.
believe in yourself.
love yourself.
missing you.
all my love.

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I tried to be perfect

But nothing was worth it

I don’t believe it makes me real

I thought it’d be easy

But no one believes me

I meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul

I’d say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I’m trying to let you know

That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty

My thoughts are so tempting

I don’t know how it got so bad

Sometimes it’s so crazy

That nothing can save me

But it’s the only thing that I have

On my own

An ideal situation.

she was to choose between 3.

1) a rich & handsome man

2) a man who loves her more than anything
( hereby assuming she doesnt love him as much if she does love at all)

3) a man whom she loves more than anything
( hence assuming he doesnt love her much if at all )


it was seemingly obvious.. it was to be option 3... no doubt about it..
as option 1 didnt have a chance to begin with..
but the more she thought about it the more it didnt feel r i g h t...
the general consensus was option 2 but..
she didnt think she could live with someone whom she didnt particularly have a deep affection for..
then the herione in her books had this habit of refusing all offers or proposals of sorts from the object of affection with the idea that he doesnt l o v e her... hence option 3 is out .. indefinitely..
and that made her think, ponder, wonder, wool-gather..
" ..no self-respecting woman can love for long without being loved in return ..~ VA "
and came to the conclusion that she wouldnt want any of the above..
s h e would want to love and be loved in return in the same measure.
an ideal situation.

but of course the choice was posed to her with the assumption that the ideal situation is out of reach, unattainable.
and the thought, the hope, the wishfullness came ... and as she was expecting it, she allowed it to float around a lil before banishing it.. but not before feeling the lil prick of hurt, of dissapointment, of r e g r e t..
"would she ever have that ideal situation?"

lost

without you
without me
alone
y e t
together
completely left out
b u t
totally exclusive
so near
y e t
so far
loved
a n d
unloved
shitz
oxymorons
i hate them!!

A fairytale..

ban ye shui bu zhu jiao

ba xin qing heng cheng ge

zhi hao dao wu ding zhao ling yi ge meng jing

shui meng zhong bei qiao xing

wo hai shi bu que ding

zen hui you dong ren xuan lü zai dui mian de wu ding

wo qiao qiao guan shang men

dai zhu xi wang shang qu

yuan lai shi wo meng li chang chu xian de na ge ren

na ge ren bu jiu shi wo meng li na mo hu de ren

wo men you tong yang de mo qi

yong tian xian

pai cheng ai ni de xing zhuang

yong tian xian

pai cheng ai ni de xing zhuang

zai wu ding chang zhu ni de ge

rang xing xing dian zhui cheng zui lang man de ye wan

zai wu ding he wo ai de ren

zui lang man de ye wan

yong bao zhe shi ke

zhe yi fen yi miao quan dou ting zhi

ai kai shi jiu jie

zai wu ding chang zhu ni de ge

jiang fan huang de ye xian gei zui gu du de yue

zai wu ding he wo ai de ren

zui gu du de yue

yong bao zhe shi ke

zhe yi fen yi miao quan dou ting zhi

ai kai shi jiu jie

meng you ni er mei

rang wo ai ni shi shei

rang ni ai wo shi shei

zen hui you dong ren xuan lü huan rao zai wo liang de shen bian

shi wo shi ni dong ren xian lü huan rao zai wo lia de shen bian

rang wo ai ni shi shei

rang ni ai wo shi shei

yuan lai shi zhe wu ding you mei li de xie gou

shi wo shi ni zhe wu ding you mei li de xie gou

zai wu ding chang zhu ni de ge

zai wu ding he wo ai de ren

~Wu Ding~

disillusioned:

--> to leave without illusion or naive faith and trust.

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Me :
I am disillusioned.

You:
About what?

Me:
about how even celebrities cant have a happy and lasting marriage
about how even celebrities are unable to keep their promise to be faithful
about how even though i see many happy couples around me i see equal number if not more unhappy couples beside me
about how promises arent taken seriously
about everything!!

You:
But why are you disillusioned?

Me:
dunno. perhaps cuz im angry. angry that im missing out and angry that im not missing out.
*unintelligible curse*

You:
sour grapes maybe?

Me:
errrrrrr not exactly......
i dont know how to explain what im feeling

You:
just dont think about it then..

Me:
my books no longer provide me with an escape route, at least i dont think..
at times they even makes thing worse by filling my head with endless fairytales, happy endings..
im mad that i cant have what i want and what i have i dont particularly desire.

You:
everyone feels like that..

Me:
so?

You:
*speechless*

Me:
*sulks*

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'someone turn around and see me cry'

someone save me.