new

i want a new banner for my blog....
its a new year aint it...
frest start aint it...
hmmm i wonder.. what..
i wonder where...
i wonder how...

sweep me off my feet why dont you..

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Whats ma name??? Who am i??

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

Liz is ritE!! its purreety accurate...

Nancy Marie Wright

What's Your Average American Name?

orgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'>Your Average American Name Is...
eeewwwwww so not mee!!!! eew eew eew!

What kinda Candy am I?

Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

Very popular, one of you is not enough.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

thanks to sweet liz.. muahahha

beat me up wont ya

i think
no im sure

ignorance is bliss..

the less things you know
the less things you have to worry about, be angry about, frus about, badger yourself about, cry about etc etc

or maybe im just plain lazy?

and then there's the whole issue of being ignorant..

hmm i think if i go on anymore ill confuse myself..
but i also know i wont go into a rant, cuz ppl's opinions are ppl's opinions.fullstop.

insanity

im seriously questioning my sanity..

im seriously questioning myself,

as a person, as a women, as a working executive

first i get slammed by a client (*phone that is)

then i get admonished by a close friend whom i never thought would react like that to me....

these consecutive incidents have really made me doubt myself

the person that i have become

what happens when all your walls start falling down?

i really dont want the whole alcohol, cigarrettes & devil may care attitude
cuz i know that if i do, i wont be able to turn back. ever.
its a huge sacrifice (can i call it that?) that im not prepared to make..
so cliche but i guess i dont want to sell my soul to the devil.
cuz there's no in-between for me. its either or.

they say you cant take things so personally..
and i understand that, i do.
i tell myself to not be so self-centered. that its not all about me.

but it's hard.
its hard to be open, and jovial and people centered and motivated to have job pride
when you're not happy ,
when you always have to watch what you say to everyone,
when you're so alone and it seems like everyone else isn't.

***

I woke up to Missy Higgins this morning.
It was hard to pull myself out of bed
cuz it just felt so nostalgic, the memories, they were warm, comfortable, non-threatening.
made me really wanna go back to Melbourne
so badly..
but a small part of me know that it wouldnt be the same going back now.
whether to live or to work. the dynamics would have changed. it was a bittersweet morning.

***

and so i resigned myself .
resigned myself to what exactly, i do not know.
but i just know i have to resign myself to the fact that i have to just suck it up at the moment.
don't be a baby i tell myself.
life sucks most of the time. im just waiting for that rare golden moment that makes life worth living, day after day after day.

in comparison

I missed the MUSE @ Stadium Merdeka, 25th Feb 2007

for this..

Oscars Breakfast with the Stars, 26th Feb 2007

all the more wiser

a client just slammed down the phone on me..
sigh...

as usual my first reaction was to cry.. den the wiser, working, more world wise adult in me took over & got mad...

and so i went over to update and gripe to my colleague who is working on the account with me..

what do you do when the client cant make up their mind and your meeting time with them is spent mostly on them having internal discussions and stretching your meeting to a good 4 hours..

client accused me of and i quote "putting all the blame on me"
even after apologising and bowing over the phone , client curtly ended the conversation and slammed the phone down..

hmph. spoil my day at 5.27pm why dont you...

there really are bitchy clients after all... *bleah*