Behold a new year..

B l e s s e d C h r i s t m a s !

funny how we wrap up the year with Christmas when we should be S t a r t i n g the year With Christmas..
A new Begining, a new start, a new life.

"Today unto us a child is born on earth."

but then we have 1st of January to that right..
so between now and then,
people i think are at a bittersweet hold in life..
thinking back of all that has happened the past 12 months..
remininscing about the previous christmas and new year..

as for me.. i suppose this is my early resolution/wishes/hope/thoughts for upcoming year of 2006..

and boy am i glad this year is over.. and yes i am looking forward to 2006
lots of changes, lots of hope, lots of wishes floating in a clear glass..
this year has been wrought with so so many memories..
some i would have live more pleasently without and some i would give almost anything to have it again
this hasnt been an easy year.. and yet i think it is succintly apt in coming together with my transition to officialy adulthood-ness..

i found a statement by my to-be-in-oz-in-2 months-bestfwen so very wise and so very true..
and i think- GOSH has she grown the past year.. and i wasnt really there to see it.. but am i Glad to have her.. nyways
Quote " ..the end of 2005 - the end of another phase, another chapter, and whats been said and done has been said and done."

it is indeed time to put this year behind us.. to place in a lovely ribboneed box marked 2005 and shelve it into our memory bank where it is thought out of sight but if ever we need to look it up, it is there.

i anticipate the new year more so then ever before , id like to think anyway..
because perhaps surprisingly.. i am not as cynical as i thought i had become
because however small it may be
i still can dream, i still can hope, i still can live.
and that you see, makes all the difference.

Ciest la vie.

beautiful dawn

with my milk tea and my box of danish butter cookies sitting contentedly next to me..
i feel the justification in naming my blog the way it is now..
im not very good with naming names, choosing terms, deciding descriptions..
but tonite as i wind down a long and tiring week+end, looking through my gorgeous,kindy known , playground ruling, now grown up darlin's blog.. i reminisce
a wave of homesick flutters past..
unexpectedly i must admit..
as usual, one tends to over/underestimate oneself..
and tonite,
over milk tea and butter cookies,
i find myself
thinking
of all the ones who have made my life so much more fuller
so much more satisfying
so much beautiful
just so much more
and i find myself
breezing through a kaleidescope of faces,
memories
people,places, events that have been. to me.
bittersweet regret tinges what would be a picture perfect album
lost contacts
lost places
lost people
but i am grateful nay i give my life
to those that have made me a better person
those that have taught me so much
to just be me. conciously or unconciously.
i draw strength from all of you.
and i pray and hope with all that i am that
i too have been for you.

O_o with such a pourout of emotions i reckon sum form of err list i suppose is expected..
in no order of importance but what i can recapture. now..

my dearest stella ~ ive told you this so many times.. and i just cant seem to stop repeating myself..
ur strength through everything is tremendous.. you are my inspiration. and i anticipate all that you can become. you are destined for greatness.truly.*muaks*
lizzie ~ ur purity of heart and soul never fails to lift me up. ur unwavering belief in me, to just let me be me.. i could never ask for anything more precious.. i love you.
gene ~ my darlin ,my life.. so much to say , yet i cant find the words .. the journey that we have undertook, i anticipate so much in our future.. i believe i dont need to tell you what you've been to me, anyone can tell u that i reckon, but as always , you are bound for an unstoppable ride of your life, and you will soar... my only hope is that.. i will be with you.. i believe in you. all my love always.
ching ~ i dont know if you've ever wondered.. but i have.. how two beings such as us.. could have end up together.. and by saying 'together' you know what i mean.. but whatever, however, i know we are blessed to have each other.. ours isnt the run of the mill type of friendship is it.. and i think that is what makes it all the more precious.. all the more something.. you are the dawn to my sunset i believe.. if that makes sense..

so many others that have placed lil handprints on my life.. those that have made an impact.. good and bad.. on who i am..
you will know who you are.. you guys are my life.. my beautiful dawn.