beautiful dawn

with my milk tea and my box of danish butter cookies sitting contentedly next to me..
i feel the justification in naming my blog the way it is now..
im not very good with naming names, choosing terms, deciding descriptions..
but tonite as i wind down a long and tiring week+end, looking through my gorgeous,kindy known , playground ruling, now grown up darlin's blog.. i reminisce
a wave of homesick flutters past..
unexpectedly i must admit..
as usual, one tends to over/underestimate oneself..
and tonite,
over milk tea and butter cookies,
i find myself
thinking
of all the ones who have made my life so much more fuller
so much more satisfying
so much beautiful
just so much more
and i find myself
breezing through a kaleidescope of faces,
memories
people,places, events that have been. to me.
bittersweet regret tinges what would be a picture perfect album
lost contacts
lost places
lost people
but i am grateful nay i give my life
to those that have made me a better person
those that have taught me so much
to just be me. conciously or unconciously.
i draw strength from all of you.
and i pray and hope with all that i am that
i too have been for you.

O_o with such a pourout of emotions i reckon sum form of err list i suppose is expected..
in no order of importance but what i can recapture. now..

my dearest stella ~ ive told you this so many times.. and i just cant seem to stop repeating myself..
ur strength through everything is tremendous.. you are my inspiration. and i anticipate all that you can become. you are destined for greatness.truly.*muaks*
lizzie ~ ur purity of heart and soul never fails to lift me up. ur unwavering belief in me, to just let me be me.. i could never ask for anything more precious.. i love you.
gene ~ my darlin ,my life.. so much to say , yet i cant find the words .. the journey that we have undertook, i anticipate so much in our future.. i believe i dont need to tell you what you've been to me, anyone can tell u that i reckon, but as always , you are bound for an unstoppable ride of your life, and you will soar... my only hope is that.. i will be with you.. i believe in you. all my love always.
ching ~ i dont know if you've ever wondered.. but i have.. how two beings such as us.. could have end up together.. and by saying 'together' you know what i mean.. but whatever, however, i know we are blessed to have each other.. ours isnt the run of the mill type of friendship is it.. and i think that is what makes it all the more precious.. all the more something.. you are the dawn to my sunset i believe.. if that makes sense..

so many others that have placed lil handprints on my life.. those that have made an impact.. good and bad.. on who i am..
you will know who you are.. you guys are my life.. my beautiful dawn.