If only..

"And I can't really tell you what I'm gonna do
There are so many thoughts in my head
There are two roads to walk down and one road to choose" ~ Thinking Over

If only it wasnt you
my heart contricts thinking of your pain
my soul aches to see you incomplete
my whole being longs to give you what you so desire
but i cant
at least not yet
at least now now
at least not until i am sure
not until i am able to
If only it wasnt You.