a touch of something
ive just realised that most of the time you cant choose who you fall in love with whether that person in particular is unattached or oherwise whether that person is heaven sent or hell incarnate on earth minor complications(for lack of a better word) arise when the person whom you have fallen in love with is currently attached to someone else. major complications arise when you choose to believe that as long as that person is not in a legally binding situation (read m a r r i e d) all's fair in love and war and then, well.. sometimes people are tempted hearts are broken trust is gone love is lost for everyone. if only every story had a happy ending.
come what may..
i think i am d i s a p p o i n t e d ......i suppose i think therefore i a m. on another note...i am utterlysurprised.at the way d r e a m s start to rebuild themselves at the first sign of h o p e .and also utterlytotallycompletelyafraid.that those same d r e a m s will be tornburntstepped on a g a i n.on another note...theres a p a r t e e going either next door to my apartment or below or ontop.. never really good at logistics estimation.. but there IS a partee going on somewhere..and they are making alot of n o i s e s ....*bleah*
always always
courtesy of my lovely friends.. i will always always remember some of them through specific circumstances/things.. and im so proud to say that it always always puts a big smile on my face..cheers to all of you that have contributed to my sweet memories..here's a short list... in no particular order or importance.....::jay chou::.. alex!!! ahahah red box in lex's car with gene.. one of my fondest memories who also started my l o v e affair with jay chou's songs... ahhahaha..::ciggies/friends with them::.. my darlin charmane... *lung cancer* everytime i see a friend lite up.. im so tempted to shout at them ** but i know only my dear char will understand.. 0_o ( if u read this i miss u!!! haha)..::liquor/liquor inducing situations::.. liedeeuh!!! she problably wont think its a good thing.. but to me it was gorgeous fun...seriously... i only feel like indulging whenever she is.... [christos!! omg memories!!]..::karaoke::.. again my dear liedeeuh... ahhaha us screaming our hearts out.. *cheers* to you and my dearest wish to you see happy and settled.. ( arghh i sound so oldd!!!)there are more... and obviously there are the not so pleasant memories as well.. but lets not go into that..ill continue sommore later maybe =)
*ackkk*
i find that i'm in the mood to imbibe. sighhh
intuition
girls intuition.i never paid much attention to my supposedly girly intuition.but sometimes there is that feelin inside you, ever growing, ever knowing, constantly present, prodding you with that itty gritty knowledge that if and when it is ever spoken as the truth, would break your heart, poision your soul and scar your life.intuition.it happened to me once.i am hoping, praying, crossing my fingers, ignoring the prodding that i sometimes feel and wish upon my mending heart, healing soul and scarred life that this time it wont happen again.intuition.when it fails you, you breathe a sigh of relief and move on.when it is proven real, you pick up the pieces and try to move on.intuition.would you rather have the knowlege or is ignorance bliss?you can only be ignorant to a certain extent i reckon.after awhile, however much you run and hide, it will catch up to you.the truth hurts. or rather the truth tears you up inside out, brings your life to a crawl, brings you to your knees praying 'God please take it away...' and makes you clench your fingers into a fist hoping for some physical pain to take way the other pain.and yet after,you learn to live with the hurt, with your mockery of a life, you learn who really are your kindred spirits to you dying breathe.you have to after all experience the pain, the sadness, the dissappointment, the regret;to truly appreciate and expereince the joy, the happiness, Life.
