preoccupied/joy

the sun is shining
but all i see are the dark clouds on the horizon
the birds are chirping
but all i hear are the conversations in my head
holidays are a few joyous days away
but all i feel is apprehension

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i found out that one can be unhappy and still have joy in their hearts...
joy in being a child of God
joy in the knowledge that God will never leave you nor forsake you
God's Joy.