home sweet home

i see your happiness
i feel your contentment
i read about your satisfaction
and i think to myself
what about me? what about my happiness? what about my contentment and my satisfaction?
what am i lacking to not have all those?
why isit different for me?

and then i feel
and then i remember
and then i see the reason
the reason why your home sweet home is so different then mine

the reason why
i dont have the joyful outings
the silly moments
the nothingness of days

this is home for me.
im glad its not the case for you.