free period.

i remember, there was a period of time during high school,
that i had on a mask all the time..
i was totally shut off in my own world..
noone knew the real me, what i was really feeling
perhaps it was was adolescent angst
i wouldnt know .. i just remember that what i presented to everyone around wasnt real,
wasnt true.
i also remember, how tiring it was always hiding what i feel.

and then, i grew up.
i grew more confident in myself, my abilities, i didn't feel the need to hide what i was feeling anymore. it didnt matter anymore what people's reaction to what i was feeling could be.
i didnt have to proove myself to anyone. not as a person anyways.
i didnt and still dont ( within certain boundaries ) care what people would think about my actions
perhaps also, it just got too tiring to hide.

though i doubt this 'couldnt care less' attitude isnt at all healthy rite..