(in)sanity

if only you knew
what those few words
mean to me
if you only knew
how much i try
to keep it all
the way i know you want it to be
if only you knew
how those words
keeps me going

it is as if
you are the firefly
that a little girl has caught in a jar
bringing light
to her darkened room at night
only to realise she has to let it go
when day breaks

life is fraught with uncertainty isnt it
full of dissapointing plans and broken promises
and yet
life is also filled with spasms of abounding light
smiles and sweet memories all around
they are what that has been keeping me going
and i will forever remember that