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nursing the leftover residue's of liqour, nonsensical doings and endless drama.

feeling the numbness of body , mind & spirit.

reminisces on the past year, on what was, what wasn't and what should have been.

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she stretches out her hand
trying hard to grab hold
of some of the hope and
promises a new year brings
she tries and tries
but it just seem so far away
almost unreachable..
unwilling to give up
she continues trying
for she knows that she needs that hope
to get her through this new year
this new year that at times seems so bleak
and so very uncertain
she looks, amidst despair and doubt
searching for the nearest hope that is within reach
she has to be cautious
she wouldnt want to mistakenly grab hold of despair
or its sister depression
then suddenly
she catches a glimmer
its not a very big glimmer
she pushes through and reaches out her hand
fighting against the doubt that is blocking her view
of that little glimmer of hope
although afraid
she grabs hold of that little glimmer
then bringing it close to her
she opens her hand
and a smile slowly starts
for in her hand
is a tiny rose bud
in the beginings of a bloom
the glimmer that she saw
came from the core of the bud
for as the tiny bud grows and blooms into
a beautiful red rose
the little glimmer
grows into some big
something full of good and
full of promises
something called
hope.
and so she waits
she tends and nurses this tiny bud
careful to not neglect it but to cherish it
giving it lots of care and love
as it slowly blooms and brings her
something she needs so very much
something that seemed to have escaped her grasp
sometime ago
and so she waits in expectation
she's no longer worried or fearful of what the new year will bring
for now she has something that will give her strength
to endure anything the new year throws at her
for she now has hope.
=)

Blessed New Year...God Bless YOU & YOU & YOU......