a new hope dawns

some things however much you try
in whatever way possible
to avoid it, just doesnt happen.
BUT
its ok. im fine with it.
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i look forward to the day when i dont have to pretend anymore
i look forward to the day when i dont have to wonder anymore
i look forward to the day when i am living for me
i look forward to the day when all fear is gone
i look forward to the day when i can smile because i am happy
and not because i have to.
but most of all
i look forward to you.

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you're right... there are no shortcuts..
but i am better. truly i am.
im enjoying my time back home. enjoying the company of family and friends.
you're right. thanks. =)